Regret

 

It was 5o’clock in the evening when I was returning home. I had to walk for 30 minutes from the bus stop to my home. The office had given me 20 days of summer vacation and I grabbed this opportunity to attend some meditation classes. The trainer not only taught about meditation but had conducted interaction classes with some gurus who gave speeches about humanity.


On the way towards home, I saw a person helping the blind couple to walk over the graveled road. I was impressed with the person for his kindly behavior towards needy ones especially when the 21st century is hurriedly busy with individual’s improvement. Everyone was looking towards them in a surprising way. It seems as if I was following them. In fact, the way they were walking was led towards my house. I reached my house but they were still walking. I was surprised as the blind couple was living in our society and we did not know about our neighbors. When I was fresh up, I thought I would also have helped in the name of humanity.

The next day, perhaps the god wants to test me. I again met them. But this time they were alone. But before I thought to help them my mind came up with a new question, “Are they actually blind or are they just acting?So, this time I decided to follow them and came to know that they actually were blind.

After some days, I again saw the crossing the road. Now my doubts were clear and nobody was there helping them. It was a great chance for me to serve humanity, my first practice, and a real test of my knowledge but I failed. The visual when some days ago a man helped them roam around my mind. Everyone was looking around him. So, I was confirmed that the same would happen to me. I felt shy of myself and hesitated.


Each time a person needs help, I always have some reason to deny it. When I reached home, I felt an apology. I had thought of myself as a kind person. When I used to see people not helping the needy from the buses, I hate their behavior. This time I judged myself as selfish and cowardly. Gautam Buddha once said, “Action speaks louder than the word.”